Andie, hey, thanks lots for EVERYTHING in this world. I am very thankful for a friend like you. Thanks for taking care of me since the day we met and became friends. Thanks for the fun with Deepa (although we hardly met each other...), alongside Hian Seng, Mei Poh, and the rest of the gang.

Man, I had fun memories with you guys. Sad, you gotta leave for Germany in two more days... Gosh, so SOON!!! Sob sob..., it's hard to let you go. It's hard to imagine life without you, buddy. Life wouldn't be more meaningful without you. No more people to take me out when I'm back in Kuantan:( No one will call me and ask, "Hey, how're you doing? How's life? How's studies?" like how you did to me. Arghh!!!

Hey, Andrew, thanks heaps for the wonderful gifts. Thanks for everything that you gave to me. Hey, I love the MAC iPod very very MUCH!!! It's cool man. I really don't know what to say. I actually wanted an iPod in a very long time. I just don't have the chance to get it. Man, I am touched by your kindness. You've been a splendid blessing for me. I'm honored to have you as my friend. It's really such an expensive gift you know. What have i to offer you for the trade?!?!?

Eh eh, I love the lunch place you brought me to dine this afternoon. Dragon-i. Mmm, I'm loving it!!! Hope we can go there again some day. Mmm, and I really meant what i said. Hope to celebrate our virgo birthday together with Hian Seng one day... We should bah, it's just a difference of 5 days apart. And yes, I'll remember next year, on the 20.09.2009. Lucky year for you bah. Haha...

Andie, bon voyage. Till we meet again. Journey mercies to Germany. May success, fame and happiness be with you there. May you meet better friends to bless your life there. I do hope to join you one day, pal. I'm gonna miss you... I'm gonna miss doing everything with you together.

Thanks for being my friend...

Hey, pal, you know who you are. I'm sorry if I was over reacting, but, I do, as a matter of fact, think that sometimes life ain't just as simple as we thought.

I think that it was, my hard work putting all this together. My effort, my whole-self, and sacrifices altogether just for something i thought that would be meaningful. But, why, because of how you felt, because you ain't gonna take the risk to tell others off, which result you deciding on a twist decision at the very last minute?

I think sometimes we gotta be a little more selfish or be firm to achieve what we had put through together. It's no easy task you know. I don't put up with all the shit just to please others.

Hey, we gotta learn how to say "NO", or "I'm sorry, but I can't do this". We can't just be shy or afraid to express what our thoughts were... We aren't perfect, you know.If I was a little over reacted, I'm sorry. But I'm taking no bullshit again next time.

I hope you do your best in your studies and future. I know, you've been my bestest pal ever. But sorry, friends be honest to each other and tell each other off when they aren't happy. Don't take other's effort for granted. You don't know what it takes to have something achieve in ages, but to have to spoil it just takes us a second...

Yay, just came back from Kuala Kubu Baru for YLDP. It was fun... Exciting... I was amazed at how God's power touched so many youths there... Many hearts has been touched and changed. Praise God!!!

I was also being prayed for by Pastor Daniel Singh. And I'll remember... "I am a powerful woman and I will bring many people into God's kingdom through worship... I'll make a difference through His music... Amen!!!"

Went to watch "Golden Compass" with Sarah, Sharon & ah bi earlier on after dinner at William's. Sadly Diane & Johann couldn't join us... Bishhh!!! Nevermind, next time bah... Tapi, alamak, that movie potong stim la!!! Aiyor... Have to wait for Golden Compass 2... Ish!!!

Maria Yasmin, happy birthday... Thanks for the invitation to your house tonight... Hehe...

Dom, welcome home to KL. We go eat Malaysian food puas puas with Richmond & Cilut before you head back to Singapore again ya?

Serter, thanks for teaching me, okito means good night... Ahahaha...

Pramono, thanks for your care and concern. OK, i will remember... "menonton filem" not menonton wayang... and chocolate ice-cream is your favourite... Ahahhaaa... Thanks for sharing your thoughts with me, my friend.

Aku tidak tahu apa harus kukatakan padamu. Kau tahu kan, dalam diam, hatiku sudah kaucuri, hatiku sudah kau terokai. Tapi kau juga tahu aku punya pendirian yang kukuh bukan? Aku tetap dengan keputusanku...

Betapa kurindukan dirimu, betapa gementar kunantikan saat kau muncul di tirai kaca ini, betapa hatiku merintih untukmu, bila hati ini sentiasa memanggil namamu tiap kali namamu muncul diingatanku, Dan... betapa gembira bila kita bertemu dan kau tahu kumahu bersamamu...

Tapi...

Kenapa kita bertemu dan tidak boleh bersama?

Mmm... terus kukatakan, aku tidak mampu melawan takdir...

Ini semua bukan kehendakku sama sekali. Maafkan diri kerdil ini, aku tidak bisa, sayang. Kau dan aku bukan dari latar yang sama... Kita berbeda... sama sekali...

Aku cuma boleh berharap dan berdoa agar kita sihat dan gembira sentiasa, dan direstui Tuhan yang Maha Esa... Aku serahkan pada-Nya... Semuanya...

Tapi... Kau tahukan aku memang mengkagumi dirimu?

All the best to you...

One more month to Christmas... Yay!!!

Let's see, musical is over, but sadly, I miss everyone in the Rose musical. Sigh... Well, people come people go, there'll always be good times, bad times, happy times, sad times, etc.

Also, just came back from Singapore. Ouch, I didn't know my playing was awfully terrible, it really affected the way Dom sand for his exam. Dom, sorry to disappoint you, bro. Hope we can do much better next year? Looking forward...

Still sick!!! Arghhh!!! Since Thursday... Aih, my phlegm gets more and more each day!!! I wanna heal fast!!!

Wow, I'm actually starting YLDP worship practice tomorrow. So soon. Yay, can't wait to jam again and praise our Almighty Father. Haha... So good to play for Him again.

I believe in the past, we do go through some pain and hurt, but what is past, let it go. No point crying over spilled milk. Instead look forward to the future. Yeah, let it go... Be strong. What is important is look ahead of us. We might not want to miss anything fun and exciting.

Dom, faster come back. Richmond, good luck in your last few papers. RED, I miss our mamak session, our crazy and fun activities together.

Sarah, hope you make the right decision. Don't live to please people OK? Tony Leo, get well soon. I believed our Father is working his ways and healing you, bro. Sharon, have a nice holiday in Sarawak. To the others, I miss you all so much...

I'm taking my break here blogging. Few more hours to go for history exam. Time passes real fast...

Wow, I never knew that reading about Haydn, Mozart, Beethoven, Liszt, Berlioz, Schubert, Schumann, Mendelssohn  and Chopin is so interesting. Music history wasn't as bad as i thought. Ha ha. I just need to concentrate in class and try to understand them when i read, and make my own notes, use more of my imagination and make a story. That easy... Hopefully I can pass history. I will pass. I WILL!!! (This means that I will have to sacrifice my sleep tonight. Ouch!!! )

Damn, early class with Tong Keat later... Goh Tong Keat!!! Why make me go through this?!? I've not been practicing for like almost a week bah. I surely won't play well later in class. I won't even concentrate!!! Sure let YY scold later!!! Why make me go for your class on history exam day? Ko sudah gila ka apa? Awal banget!!! WHYyyyyy!!!!!?????  It's ridiculous!!! Why did you make me go through this? Run through suppose to be played well, not simply play. You should tell YY to postpone it to Friday instead. That way I don't have to worry about not practicing and preparing well for your class!!! Arghhhh!!!Arghhh!!! Arghhhh!!! Arghhhh!!! Arghhhh!!! ARGHHHHH!!!!!! Don't care. Die then die la. (Another part of me says: Wuihhh, calm down, calm down, think positive la, Elaine. You already committed yourself. Don't complain!!! You can de... You can do it. )

Sigh, too many exams, accompaniment practices and musicals to worry about. Honestly, I lacked of  practices on my own graduation pieces. I really need to work on my graduation pieces this holiday. No more commitments. Focus on graduation recital. I wanna do my best next semester. I wanna make Ms Chew proud. I wanna make my parents proud. I wanna make my friends proud, too. Then... I wanna break free!!! And then... What else? Aiyo, of course get out of UCSI and come back again for convo la.

Yay, good news. History listening has been postponed to 29th October, 8-9am. This means I won't have to wait till 31st October to go up to Genting. I can make it  after Belinda and Tong Keat's jury itself on 30th October. Thank you, Lord Father for answering my prayers. 

I really am excited and nervous at the same time. I really can't wait for history exam tomorrow. And then, I can't wait for musical practice at night. And then I can't wait to go to Genting next week.

I can't wait for the day to come... EXCITED!!! and NERVOUS at the same time...!!!

Ps:  Xin Qiao, get well soon ;)

Countdown to Rose Rose I Love You - The Musical... In ONE MORE WEEK!!! Time flies!!! I'll be in Genting in another week's time. Excited!!! Ha ha... Can't wait to go up and performed with the whole team.

Basically, today's musical practice was quite interesting. We had practice at Talent Hub in Sri Hartamas which started at 9.30pm.

Ha... For the first time we, the musicians, collaborated with the musical casts. Ahh... It really makes so much of difference when we actually practice with the cast. I do get the clearer picture that way.

The casts were funny. Ha ha, had a great laugh even though I knew nothing of what they were talking about. Poor me, orang Cina tak tahu cakap Cina. Orang Cina tak tahu dengar bahasa Cina. Ishhh!!!

Really tiring and hectic day. Our practice ended so late. 12.45am. Ouch!!! By the time i reached home, i was exhausted already.

Ahhhh!!! History exam's tomorrow. This freaks me out... I better catch hold of History. I love History. Yay yay yay!!!

To Tan Sri Lim Goh Tong, R.I.P.

It's the heart afraid of breaking
That never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking
That never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying
That never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long.
And you think that love is only
For the lucky and the strong.
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snows
Lies the seed that with the sun's love,
In the spring, becomes a rose...

First of all, Alice, Chyh Shen, congrats to the both of you. So happy for you both. Hope you guys can last forever la, k? Alice & Chyh Shen, age doesn't matter. It's what your feelings for each other that matters most. We, your friends are there to support you guys no matter what happens OK?

Haihhh... Hari Raya today. Went no where except to Izza's and Farnaz's house for makan. Haha...

Finals and term paper due date next week. My heart goes dub dab dub dab, and beats even faster every time i think of it. Hope to do well and try my best and put 100% effort. I can't wait to graduate. I can't wait to start doing what I've always want to do.

Bob the builder, can we fix it? Yes we CAN!!! Add petrol, Elaine!!!

Fuhhhh!!! Just came home from musical practice... Really, I've not slept much since the day lectures starts this semester. It's really hectic, exhausting, tired; and I'm really putting triple more effort than i used to in the previous semesters... Every minute of practices and lectures needs more focus. And, yes, with the extra work load of accompanying my fellow friends, Tong Keat and Belinda for their recitals and jury exams isn't easy at all. This means more practice, more detail work, plus... preparation for graduation recital... Arghhhh!!! By the time I realize, my sight reading was improving already...

But musical practice was fun. I'm enjoying every jamming session of practices... And the rehearsals are getting better each day. Practice makes perfect... Well, I had so much fun jamming with the other musicians and go crazy that by the time i realize, it's already passed midnight!!!

And I only realize now that final exam is starting in two weeks time!!! Gosh!!! I wanna go through everything successfully!!! Please, God. Help me... Bob the builder, can we fix it? ... YES WE CAN!!!

Today...

I learned to be patient, because patience leads to success. I learn to respect my superior and subordinates. Talk when you need to talk. Don't interrupt when practice is going on. Focus on practice. Time is precious. Every minute counts...

Love your work partners and colleagues like your family. No political issues during work. Do not condemn or criticize others who are weak. I learned not to look down on others who don't have the same ability as me but rather, to learn to share my knowledge and not be selfish in giving more than what i will receive, and never expect any rewards in return. Well, in the real world, no one is perfect, except God. We depend on one another and help each other. It's called team work. Team work is important.

It's easier said than done, but is it really that easy? Mmm, to start with, it is easier if i start disciplining myself... Do not complain but learn to accept as what it is and try to make things better.

I must be patient... I must be attentive... I must respect others who are working with me...

AND...

Anyway, my friend, ha ha, you know who you are.

I realize you've been treating him so nice lately, even way before lately, if I'm not wrong. So what? Hey, are you scared of falling in love with someone who is younger than you?

Well, I feel, it's not a crime to fall in love with someone younger. Just don't hide your feelings because it will only do you harm. I know, it really hurt if you're rejected by someone, but honestly, i feel it's unfair if you love someone and not letting that someone know. And you end up hurting yourself by keeping it all to yourself.

If you love him, tell him. Don't hide it. Stand up for your rights. Maybe it will work if you give yourself time, and give each other time. Don't end up in Tanjung Rambutan my friend. Don't end up in mental hospital.

If you need to let go your feelings, or tell it to someone, go ahead. No harm... Don't be shy. Nothing wrong to love someone younger. Be brave... Don't care what others think of you. You know yourself and I believe you're old enough to decide what you want for your life. At least he knows how you feel, OK?

Don't wait too long. It's not healthy. We will support you no matter what your decision is, OK?