I was chatting with one of my Kuantan friend, Michelle Tai on MSN when I saw her message: "Why BaBy?" ... I was jokingly asking when she will get married. Her reply was: "My bf passed away 3 months ago, if not I'd have been married by now." OMG!!! I was shocked to find out about her boyfriend's lost. I grieved for her as well. <Pheartab, R.I.P...> Michelle, I'm sorry to hear about Pheartab. I know it's hard for you. But dear, life must go on. And I hope you will live life the fullest. All the best to you...

Early this morning, I sent a good night wish to Vibesh through sms, when I found out yet another shocking news... He told me that he has only 3 months to go and then I won't hear from him every again. He won't tell me the reason until I forced him sms after sms this evening. That was after I promised him I wouldn't call him again, or cry about it, or feel sorry or even see him again. To my dismay, he got cancer!!! Arghh!!! What happened? When he found out about it, was too late. According to the doctor, he had yet another 3 more months to live. Gosh...

Vibesh: "(1) Why no "muah"?... (2) Try toying harder with my feelings... (3) I know you got a boyfriend already. Hope you'll be happy with him... (4) I still love you. You're the one who don't wanna accept it or listen to me... (5) I'm on my way to work. OK, promise me you won't be sorry, or cry after I tell you, or call me or see me ever again... (6) I just want to tell you I got cancer, I have 3 months to live. Only my mom and dad knows. Sham (his boss, Shamsul Yusof) doesn't know, no one knows... (6) I don't need the special care and treatment. I think it's better if we don't meet anymore... "

Gosh... I can't continue... Reading those sms just make me wanna burst out in tears!!! How can that possibly happen to a 24 year old sweet guy like him? What went wrong? How did all this happen? Why? Why? WHY?

I spent the whole evening thinking of Vibesh's words. I felt terribly sorry for him. He was kind enough to let me know of his situation.

God have mercy...